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I’m Your Zero

I am thoroughly convinced I need to break out my Zero T-Shirt and parade around my house and office declaring my lazyness. Excluding last week’s free write I haven’t put a word down on paper since June 23rd. I will say what all of you are probably thinking: THIS IS PATHETIC!!!

I’m a writer who doesn’t write.

If you could quantify my writing into a report, I would be a zero. Perhaps even less than zero! I really don’t know. I am frustrated, tired, annoyed and most of all not focused. I won’t try to make excuses such as my job is stressful (which it is) or that my personal life takes up too much time. The fact of the matter is that I am not making time to write, which to me says I don’t want it bad enough. I have a saying: “If you want it bad enough, you’ll make it happen” and I think this is applying to my lack of writing. I made sure to make time to watch the new Stargate Continuum movie last night. That was not a problem at all. Make time to work on Spirit Hackers? Ha! Fat chance!

Perhaps I’m being too hard on myself. Maybe I’m putting too much pressure on writing. I don’t know. I’m trying to come up with a new plan. Currently that entails waiting on my new work schedule. Basically I’m going to be working nights starting next week. With time every day alone and with not much to do, I think that I should set aside a small amount of time each day to write, even a little. I don’t want it to feel like a chore (which the idea of writing does right now) and I don’t want to feel pressured. Hopefully this will get my ass in gear to get this story written.

Bottom line, I’m not happy with myself in this regard. Sorry to vent to everyone but I needed to get this out there.

Lyrically Speaking for May 18

Happy Sunday to everyone out there. This week for Lyrically Speaking I wanted to bring it back home to my favorite band of all time, The Smashing Pumpkins. I’ve tried to not use them too much for this series but I have recently heard a song that reminded me of how great the lyrics are.

The album Mellon Collie & The Infinite Sadness is a double-album that has a huge range of music on it, ranging from hard rock to the softest piano. There is one song in particular that seems more poetry than music, but it’s satisfying to hear at any time. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

From The Smashing Pumpkins’ album Mellon Collie & The Infinite Sadness, this is Muzzle:

i fear that i am ordinary, just like everyone
to lie here and die among the sorrows
adrift among the days
for everything i ever said
and everything i’ve ever done is gone and dead
as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world

my life has been extraordinary
blessed and cursed and won
time heals but i’m forever broken
by and by the way…

have you ever heard the words
i’m singing in these song?
it’s for the girl i’ve loved all along
can a taste of love be so wrong

as all things must surely have to end
and great loves will one day have to part
i know that i am meant for this world
and in my mind as i was floating
far above the clouds
some children laughed i’d fall for certain
for thinking that i’d last forever

but i knew exactly where i was
and i knew the meaning of it all
and i knew the the distance to the sun
and i knew the echo that is love
and i knew the secrets in your spires
and i knew the emptiness of youth
and i knew the solitude of heart
and i knew the murmurs of the soul

and the world is drawn into your hands
and the world is etched upon your heart
and the world so hard to understand
is world you can’t live without
and i knew the silence of the world

Lyrically Speaking

I’ve mentioned in the past that music is something that helps inspire me to write. I want to share some of these songs with you because even if you don’t like the melodies, you should be able to appreciate the poetry.

My favorite band of all time, The Smashing Pumpkins, have a catalog of songs that range from hard rock to the softest piano. No matter my mood, I can find a song to help and I also have songs that are so lyrically amazing that I’ll put them on repeat.

From the album Mellon Collie & The Infinite Sadness, this is Thirty-Three:

speak to me in a language i can hear
humour me before i have to go
deep in thought i forgive everyone
as the cluttered streets greet me once again
i know i can’t be late, supper’s waiting on the table
tomorrow’s just an excuse away
so I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
the earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
at the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
steeple guide me to my heart and home
the sun is out and up and down again
i know i’ll make it, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you
and for a moment i lose myself
wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
i’ve journeyed here and there and back again
but in the same old haunts i still find my friends
mysteries not ready to reveal
sympathies i’m ready to return
i’ll make the effort, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
tomorrow’s just an excuse
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you

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